Breastfeeding Withdrawals

Well folks, what a bitter sweet moment this is... I say this with a tear in my eye...Yes it is true, I have officially stopped breastfeeding. sniff sniff. As badly as I hated breastfeeding the first month of Paislee's life I am heartbroken that it is coming to an end. I always thought I would try and breastfeed till Paislee was at least one, but my body had different plans. Once we started introducing solids to Paisers I slowly noticed my milk going away...She no longer needed to eat every 3 hours or so which was lovely, yet I noticed my milk wasn't coming in as well. So what did I do? I immediately tried feeding Paislee way more often and trying to get my milk supply back. Have you ever tried breastfeeding a non-hungry 7 month old who is interested in anything and everything besides eating? NOT HAPPENING! So that idea didn't work.... So I carried on with feeding her like I was (low milk supply & all) and what happens....CONSTIPATION! I swear Paislee was constipated every single day (give or take 1 or 2 days a week) and I felt so bad for the poor little bugger. I didn't realize I was the reason until about 4 weeks into the constipation when I decided to give her formula during the day and breast feed her only in the morning and at night. It cleared up just like that! Well, as I switched to the morning and evening feedings what happened??? My milk obviously took a turn for the worse. Can I really only breastfeed my child if I am feeding her every 3 hours? Stupid boobs. So I have finally decided to stop trying & move onto the money sucking formula. I think I am handling this change far worse than Pais. On a more positive note, I am super excited to get my body back to COMPLETE normal now. Hopefully this engorged feeling doesn't last too much longer.....I feel like I am going to POP! Anyways, enough about my breasts and milk.... I love my little Paislee Ann and can't believe what a grown up girl she is now! Now I just need to get her trained to not pull my shirt down and or try to suck on my boob through my shirt in public...Although it shows she is getting smart and learning, its quite embarassing to say the least (especially when you are trying to make new friends in your ward and your holding a baby that is pulling your shirt down and biting at your boobs...) Thanks for letting me vent!